Melancholic State

melancholy: 

1. 1.

   a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause.

   
   

   synonyms:

   desolation, sadness, pensiveness, woe, sorrow, melancholia;  unhappiness, dejection, depression, gloom, gloominess, misery, low spirits, moroseness, doldrums, defeatism, pessimism, dejectedness, dispiritedness, despondency;  informalthe dumps, the blues "a feeling of melancholy descended on him"

There's something about July and how my brain is wired that brings me to be in this state. On hindsight, came to realize that normally it is at this stage in my young life when people in the barrios have pretty much completed the rice planting task. Hence, what's left is all but waiting game. Waiting for the rains, storms to come. Waiting for the fertilizers to be spread. Generally people are left sitting, waiting and for people like me who likes to soak in action, adventure, its such a boring existence. 

Thus...the melancholia.